Two Up. Truth. Untruth. Nothing.

Conscious thought.... what is conscious thought. How does one know if they are in fact conscious. I think it is impossible to ever know for sure. I see with my eyes, what do you see with yours? We have ideas about what others see, but it is impossible for me to see through your eyes. All perception is an interpretation made by your individual brain, all of our brains are slightly different. Therefor all of our perceptions are different. Without knowing for 100% certainty what someone else can see how do we know if what someone else sees isn't completely different then our own reality. Truth is an abstract concept, if each of us experiences the world in a different manner, then what is truth? Truth is only what is true for an individual, and even then what an individual sees is different, and an interpretation of the world through signals in our brains. Then how do we know what is real? It is impossible to know, this is what makes movies like the matrix so interesting to people. It addresses the issues of sight and perception. What we see is a signal sent to our brain, so the possibilities of being hooked to a computer where it sends signals telling you what to see and making up patterns, attracts people.

The fact is truth is irrelevant, nothing is true, nothing is. Nothing is the only truth that remains in the world. The only thing you can ever really be sure of is that you can't ever know truth, you can never know 100% of the time. Nothing is 'set in stone' even that phrase makes no sense because stone itself is set up as an idea of permanence. Yes stone will not break down nearly as fast as our bodies do, but it will break down in time. Therefor stone's concept of time is even greater then the concept of human time. A stone takes millions of years to form or break down, with countless thousands of influences determining how it will be formed and what it will be composed of. This is the same as how we form ourselves. We are formed from countless interactions with the world that are impossible to predict and track. So why must we always strive to control everything as humans. Why must there be a continual strive to control and manipulate the world in a way that we see is beneficial. Why try and control the world, when you must simply realize that you have no control. Life is chaos, life is nothing, life is a series of interpreted untruths viewed and interpreted through signals sent to our brain. We as humans are in fact imperfect and how do we know that our signal isn't imperfect and that everything is a lie. We don't we live, we die, we are. This is it. This is life. There is no other truth then that, Nothing is the only truth.

We can always be sure of nothing. For in nothing everything lies.

One up

My thoughts today are as follows. My back hurts, due to a god damn stool I sit on to write. I am in a new place but use it more as a staging area then an actual home.

I have come to realize there is much about myself that is indeed a mystery even to myself. So lately I have begun the the habit of staring into the void of myself for long periods of time. Dangerous work to do, however I have come to a stage in my life where not knowing is not something I like about myself. I am unfamiliar with lots of my own tendencies and have been searching my remembered past for instances that helped to shape who I currently am. This process is arduous and I would not recommend it for the feint of heart. Trying to discover what makes you up at your core is a process that I have only just began to delve into. The human condition, what aspects of myself are perceived as inherited, or are there in fact any inherited mannerisms. The question really is whether they were inherited genetically, or by proxy to others who display the same mannerisms.

My current trends of thought are that mannerisms are inherited but not genetically. I believe that all displays of emotion that you whiteness are somehow imprinted on you, and that the more you come in contact with the different mannerisms the more you are influenced by it. Maybe you notice how a person acts and it does not phase you, maybe you see something in a person that you like and you adapt yourself slightly to be more like them, even at a subconscious level. I think that there are too many factors within life to fully be able to understand yourself let alone the world. As a western society we have a fixed definition of time. However the very thought of time is in fact irrelevant. Time itself is meaningless, and our own concept of time only stems from our own internal "clock" as to how long we live. A mosquito's concept of time must in fact be quite different then our concepts of time. We live 80 of our own years, and I am sure the mosquito in it's own definition of time lives 80 of it's own years, although their lives are much shorter, so their concept of time is in fact shorter or smaller then ours. Or possibly because their own perceived life is so short their definition or thoughts on time could be much greater then our own.

So how do we determine time when it is such an abstract concept. We don't really determine time, we create mechanisms that keep 'time' but who determined what a second is or a minute or a year. We can't really it is impossible to really know how long time is. The very notion that we think we can predict and track time is completely ridiculous. According to my clock in my cave, it is 8pm. So what does this really mean? Nothing in fact, nothing at all, it is a predetermined measurement of time that says that at this point of the day when the sun is at its current angle and during this month it is in fact 8pm. Time is another structure of control, used to manipulate us into trying to regulate our lives with a pre-determined pattern. This is just my thoughts on the matter. Time is abstract, it is at least abstract to those of us with a definite life span. The only time we can experience is the experience we live, so why not make every experience in life matter. Why do people spend their lives working menial jobs they hate, when they should be attempting to create experiences they enjoy. The ultimate explanation is our perceived need for money. We 'need' money to live, we obtain money through tasks that are not meaningful. Money dictates the necessity for the control of time. Money is in fact the largest problem facing us today. Money is power, money is time, money is fictional, money is the grid, money is abstract, money is nothing. Money is a perception we have all been tricked into believing in. We have been fooled by time, money and power. We destroy our own life as well as the life of the planet in pursuit of understanding time and conquering money.

Why is the question? Always Why.